I can still exactly remember the time when I received the call.. Those words still shakes my ear, my mind and my soul until now. I never knew that my world could stop just like how describe it in movies until it happened to me. How can I forget about those words that were clearly uttered? How can I let go of you when I didn’t really have the chance to say goodbye? How can I let go when it’s against my will? How can I let go when I really don’t want to let you go?
So much years have passed, so much realizations and so much have learned but at the end of the day, here I am writing how much I miss you, how much pain I am feeling since you left us. You have no idea how much I grieve since you’ve been gone.
Things could’ve been different right now.
I always think that incident happened because that’s God’s plan for you but I just want you to know that I also have plans for you. That one day, I can go with you and watch PBA live, that I can help you shoulder the medicine, that I can cook dinner for you and serve you.
I know that I should keep forward and I am but there will be always be a part of me that keeps going back to the past. All I have right now are the memories that we shared.
I dunno if I can still finish this cause im crying a bucket of tears right now but I want you to know that I love you so much. I love you and I miss you.